Wednesday, July 08, 2009


It Is Never Really Enough


You may give them that last oreo cookie that you saved to make you a shake just because they want it but in the end, they will eat only the filling and throw away the cookie.

You may put off reading that important book that you think you need to read to fill your mushy brain with some semblance of intelligence so you can read Green Eggs and Ham for the 56th time but ultimately, they will forget that you ever read them books.

You may decide to give up your career so you can have the privilege of raising your children on your own with dreams of bequeathing to them all your thoughts, your passion, your talents but ultimately, they will think you hover over them too much.

You may defend them from all things fearsome and use your body as a shield from the arrows of disappointment or judgments but ultimately, they will think the arrows came from you.

You may love whom they love, care for them, be generous with them but ultimately, they will find something else you lack.

You may give them everything they want and generously endow them with tangible and intangible gifts but ultimately, those things won't really matter.

You may have come from royalty, or artists, scientists, mathematicians or saints but ultimately, they won't care about your past.

You may be intelligent, experienced, wise or talented but ultimately, they will strip you of all those qualities by refusing to see them...or take advantage of them.

It is never really quite enough.

1 comment:

J. Faux said...

I love you Mom.

Being a parent sounds hard, but I think you did and are doing wonderful job. Maybe I'll understand better when I have grown kids of my own.