Complaining Frenzy

I think I am having a bad day. My incision hurts, my skin feels so tight, the area around the middle of my incision is just plan numb it feels weird and I still have some swelling--hardness under the skin. It feels like I'm wearing a very tight pair of pants and I need to take them off so I can breathe and be comfortable. So I take off my pants and....nothing. I realize it's my skin. Ugh.

I am so annoyed. And I'm annoyed that my expensive Anthropologie skirts and jeans don't fit. Ok, I know I should be happy that I've lost all that weight and instead of wearing a size 12, I can wear an 8. I KNOW that. I am happy dang it. But I'm also not. I can't wear pants coz I'm shaped like a cone cylinder and everything falls. And I feel fat for some reason. Fatter. FATTER in fact. And I don't know what looks good on me. And I feel like part of me has died. I feel...not me. I feel terrible.

For the past week, I've been awake all night mostly with racing thoughts and new projects threatening to have me obsess over them. I've even had the strangest compulsion to play my guitar. I haven't played my guitar in DECADES. I tried to play it and....my fingers wouldn't do what they used to do. Spaz. I am aghast.

So I am writing this because I need to vent. And I don't know why. I feel like crying but I don't know why...and even if I wanted to, I can't anyway because my mind disconnects. Am I going crazy???

Secrets revealed!

So I get a lot of compliments lately about looking younger and fresher and I've been asked again and again what my secret is. So I am going to list down what I've been doing for the past couple of years that have made a difference.

1. Sleep on your back.

     I found that sleeping on my back prevents my face from being scrunched up if I sleep on either side. If sleeping on your back is not an option, use Frownie and Winkies.

2. Drink at least 64 ounces of water.

      Drinking at least 8 glasses of water helps. I can tell when I didn't do that bec the day after my face is inflamed and swollen from water retention. It gets more and more obvious as I age so I try to drink 2 16oz bottles of water by noon and then I have the rest of the day to consume 2 or more easily.

3. Lose weight SLOWLY so skin retracts. I lost over 20 lbs over a 2 year span.

4. Now for a list of cosmetics I use to apply make-up, here's a list of products that I love:

MAC cosmetics: Fluidliner in Blacktrack. Iridescent Loose Powder in Golden Bronze (cheeks) and Silver Dusk (highlights). Cream Colour Base in "Pearl" (highlights), Eye Shadow in "Carbon" and various others.

Urban Decay Deluxe Eyeshadow in "Ransom" (Best violet colour)

Coverblend by Exuviance concealer in "Light". Doesn't crease. Lasts a long time.

Christian Dior "Universal Brow" brow pencil. Best product for eyebrows.

Bare Escentuals mineral foundation in "medium beige".

This is my favorite lipstick: Max Factor lipfinity No. 550. I think this has been discontinued.

I also use Model 21 lashes. You can buy them here. I never leave home without my lashes since I have so very little of my own. I use Duo eyelash glue. They are the best. There is a science into putting these on. I've been using false lashes since I was 17 so that's over 35 years of experimenting! I also like Ardell lashes which are available at most drugstores like Walgreens or at Ulta.

Blending all these products on your face requires some good quality brushes. I get mine here.  I also have some from Sephora. But the best place to get cosmetic brushes for proper application is here. Remember-- you must use the proper tools to get the maximum effects of your make-up.

I cannot stress enough how important skin care is and also the care and maintenance of TEETH. Yellow and malocclusion of teeth really ages you. So take the time for good dental care.

That's about all I can think of right now.