There was a specific reason that I sought to teach seminary three years ago. This time, it feels like I've reached my expiry date---which is strange because I still want to teach seminary. Could it be possible that it really is time to quit even if I don't want to? I am in a quandary. It just feels different.
BYU-Hawaii actually took the amazing task of searching me out to encourage me to finish my degree. Whilst on holiday in Hawaii, a friend contacted me and told me that someone from BYU-H had asked about me to see if I would be willing to talk about finishing my degree. COINCIDENTALLY, I just happened to be right on campus when that chit-chat took place. Coincidence? No. It's divine synchronicity! After meeting with the appropriate people, I ended up with a class schedule and a plan. But I will have to speed it up if I want to finish quickly. So...do I have the time and energy to take these classes AND teach seminary? My plan is to try and do it all. But it's scary because I don't want to risk being a crappy teacher or a crappy student. And I don't know what I am capable of doing. It's been decades since I was a student and so many things have changed. I mean, the periodic table of the elements doesn't even look the same as the last time I cracked a chemistry book! And to make matters worse, I can't even remember names of people! I mean, I can give you a list of miscellaneous facts about the person but I wouldn't be able to tell you the name! Is that a confidence booster....or loser? Is that scary or what?
Anyway, I am so overwhelmed.
